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thank you for writing back. my letter had some trouble getting approved to be sent through the mail last time. it was something about... i don't remember. but i hope this one has no problems.

how have you been? i have been well as i could have been. i'm trying my best, really. i promise that i am. please be easy on me. i never thought i would see something like this happen. every day i miss him. it's a challenge for me to get up in the morning some times but i have been managing. they told me that when they found him his body was almost unable to be recognized. i don't want to haunt you with explicit details, but his eyes were... nevermind, actually. what i want to get across is that i didn't get to see his body. maybe it was what everyone thought would be the best for me but i think i should have. is closure the word people use? it would have given me closure, maybe, to see him one last time. it wouldn't have led me to connect with him the way that i did. did you read what he wrote? he died clenching the book. it only had one thing written inside. i didn't think much of it at first, but maybe it means more. when i brought it up to everyone they said that it was his mind slipping away as he died and that i was upsetting them even more by bringing it up, but it's not about them. it's about him.

i'm sorry. how typical of me to talk about myself. how have you been?

please keep in touch,

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